Mess Up, Fess Up: Three.

I had a coca-cola and a mt.dew last night.

Why? Because I didn't feel like 'saying no'.

Doesn't feel worth it anymore.

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Mess Up, Fess Up: Two.

It figures that my second time of messing up would come the day after my third week of no-smoking and no-caffeine/soda/only water, juice and smoothies.

I had a soda from Arby's and a some meat in one of the meals.

My uncle didn't know that I was a vegetarian now. He got me that meal, and I couldn't not eat it. I'd feel horrible.

Tomorrow is a new day. My no-caffeine/soda thing starts again tomorrow. I'm back to day one there.

It's not too bad though. I'm on week three +1 day of no smoking! Go me!

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Mess Up, Fess Up: One.

I really hope this is my only time of having to fess up.

Thursday, when I decided to quit smoking and drinking anything but water, I went to a relatives home to stay for a few days. While there I drank about 3/4 a cup of Coca-Cola and smoked 3 cigarettes.

I felt bad.

Since then I have drank only water or have not smoked.

That means I have been drinking only water and have been 'smoke-free' for 2 days. Better than nothing! It all adds up.

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I Wanna' Go Rawr!

Yes, I know it says 'Rawr' not 'Raw' but, what can a girl do? :)

I've been thinking about going raw for a while. I'm not completely new to the idea. I was a vegetarian for a while. But I broke down.

I just had to have that loaded potato soup (O‘Charley‘s). It was worth it. I felt bad, but it was like sinning. It knew it was wrong but it was oh so tasty. I just couldn’t help myself. It all went downhill from there though, a bit of milk in the ingredients, a bit of cheese here and there, a little bite won't hurt...to absolute carnivorous behavior.

Complete meltdown.

I blame Auntie Floe. She's a conniving … well, not a nice woman.

So, I’m going in steps. Why? Cause I have a nasty caffeine and cigarette addiction. Okay, the cigarettes are a piece of cake to ditch compared to the caffeine (+/-2 cigarettes a day compared to living on Coke).

Actually that’s what I’m gonna’ do. I’m gonna’ ditch both addictions at once. Why sit around playing games with myself when I have my health to worry about?

I’m starting anew.

Starting right this very instance I’m not going to drink anything other than water nor am I going to smoke another cigarette.

The headaches will suck. I accept this as my body going through withdrawals. Caffeine is a drug. I wanna’ get clean.

Okay, that was a bit dramatic. But…oh well! I mean it.

If I mess up, I fess up.

Wish me luck!

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